Wednesday, May 30, 2007
Now, I knew what you meant and please forgive me.
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
I just want to be care free. I want to be more confident in myself and have a high self esteem. I want to do sports like roller blading, ice skating, bowling, rock climbing, kayaking, canoeing or drive a go-kart. How fun can that be right? Like a kid learning new things. I am yet so interested. Being a sixteen, I want to do new things. It has been a long time I never do all this. The last one was pool & that was like last year. I am bad at that. Hell! But now, I want to bowl. Yeah! Bowling or ice skating. I repeat myself. Bowling or ice skating. Hahahaha.
Zareeza, lets not go gym. Lets try a new sport like ice skating or roller blading. But eh? More expensive. Wow!
Manda, Nadiah and myself went out just now. We berbual kerepek
Guy: Dear, what drink do you want?
Girl: (thinking) Whatever....
Guy: Seriously dear... What drink you want?
Girl: Whatever lah!
Guy: Argh, one last time eh?
Girl: Okay. I want Anything....
Hahahahaha. Crap kan? What about a drink called "Aah!" Short and sweet kan?
Girl: I want aah!
I wonder what tt guy will be thinking. Hmm. You guess?
Monday, May 28, 2007
I am in a dilemma. I don't know what is wrong with me just now. Before my feet stepped out of my house, my mind was set. I was confident so that I won't shiver. This doesn't seem to work even. I feel like redoing my Olevel. I know my makrs wouldn't be that great. Maybe a just pass or something. Oh mannnnnnssss! It need a miracle you see.
Im such not in a good mood right now. Not fair you people did it with the right points. Me, out of point. Should I redo or continue focusing on my other subjects?
"Circle circle dot dot" Listen it with high volume. It is better!!!!!
Sunday, May 27, 2007
Another sheep counting and I am getting ready. I've dyed my hair. Thanks zareeza for accompanying me & sorry tt I have to get back home early. I need to study again seh.
I've fallen inlove with someone new. It sound tt scandalous. But hey, it is a plush toy. So cute adorable big enormous wow teddy bear. It can replace the cookie monster. Hahahaha! Qeena so evil, I will leave the cookie monster alone.
I know what I will get myself this year's birthday. Another necklace with a Q. Nice kan :]
Saturday, May 26, 2007
Exams. Another two sheep counting. Oh, say tt I've gone crazy with all this peribahasa. No! I am gg to be strong. People say working hard leads to success. I still hold it in my heart and soul. Gosh, when mother tounge Olevel ends, I know I am gg to be happy. It will not be the same when I see my results. Yes! I am gg to see good results. I need to build interest in my current subject. Melayu/Malay.
Zareeza and myslef. We both are talking most about our memories. We both are looking through pictures and videos. Gosh, if everything turned out just the best, I know everything would be okay right Zareeza?
Oh well, I am gg to stay up tonight and maybe Ill sleep very late. Cause mum said to me tt I need to go masjid tomorrow. 6 am.
I have to pray hard. Yes, and whoever is having their Olevel this year, I wish you all the best.
Love Rakinah
Friday, May 25, 2007
"Kilat di dalam kilau, kabus di dalam hujan
It is not the things that I am doing,
It is the meaning behind my every move"
That's why I am doing it this way. You won't understand. It is different.
Thursday, May 24, 2007
Evermore- It's too late
Monday morning: hesitate, I can't get out of bed
I'd rather go back to the dreams I'm living in my head
Tuesday evening: pack my bags, I'm heading out the door
I left a box of memories lying on the floor
Ride on, ride till early morning sun
Ride on, like the dawning of the day
It's too late, to let all your feelings show
Go on, til the night is swept away
I'm running from the city lights
I'm running from this empty life
I'm running out of time tonight
I'm screaming out for "Help! Help!"
"Slow down, your moving too fast
Go home, you'll feel better for it
Oh boy, you better stop dreaming
It's all in your head!"
'Cause it's too late now...
Ride on, ride till early morning sun
Ride on, like the morning of the day
It's too late, to let all your feelings show
Go on, til the night is swept away...
Ride on, ride till early morning sun
Ride on, like the morning of the day
It's too late, to let all your feelings show
Ride on, til the night is swept away...
A meal I ate for a day with snacks. Nadiah said "Eh aku sama!" Okay Nadiah. Now I know the real meaning of stress. Your mind goes blank and you can't think. That's why I need to revise my peribahasa again. Right now, they are at the back of my mind. It just need to be search.
You know life wasn't the same ever since this new life starts. Seriously, one comment "This sucks" God damn! I feel like choking you with one heck of a cupid? (Cupid chokehold, get what I mean? Not the title. But me. My mind is full of merepek) Oh wait, this life should go on pause. Leave the soul except the body and brain. I need to delete before Olevel starts. This one of a heck son of a gun... eiyerrrr! I mcm mad woman.
Oh hoi! I didn't know tt actually "Matair" is bahasa pasar. It means fish market language. Get it? I know chinese, india, caucasion etc. dont know.
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
"All I asked for is a fun happy life. Get it?"
My spinning head. Oh, the bed is calling me. Mind you, I've practiced and practiced hard. Yet, all I can get is either B4 up till now. I need a B3 yah know? Mdm Badariah said if I score a B3, I'll get 50 bucks just like that. Show the book, 50 dollar note in the pocket. Like touch and go?
So hell! Malay coaching just now was Booooo!!! My mood just now was unexplainable. I know I wasn't being myself. Hell yeah. So I stayed at sch up to six to complete the exta assignments. Im gg to continue this till friday. Oh yeah babeh!!
Im up to the club beat. It balanced my mind like alkali and acid.
Im gg to catch a movie later. Pirates of the Carribean 3. Im the number one fan of this movie. Ohh ahhh!!
Saturday, May 19, 2007
"A mother's love worth a million.
A bf's love worth a digit?"
No. Seriously, believe me! There is another 9 sheep counting to major examination. Omg, aku tk percaya. It feels like there is another 2 years to Olevel. Ekkk! But I know for sure, my mind would be fixed by tonight. I am gg to concentrate on studying and nothing less. No playing games or watching Hikmah as I've already watched all the episodes till the end of Season 2. You all jealous kan? I know what will happen later in the next, next, next episodes. You don't! hahahahahaha. Gundu.
The teachers from my sch are like trying to put in their best. Saying tt we should concentrate on our prelims not our Olevel. June coaching is like 11 days away(right after my Malay Olevel) and both of my science teacher sucks tt bad. I need private tuition and mum says tt she don't care how much she will need to spend on my studies. Best kan? Mum, I need mp3 for studying. How to link tt?
I am gg to practice more in my mathematics even if it is a pass guarentied. Oh well, this shows I have the potential to score A2. I think i think. Nothing less, must be A2. Oh kay, I have passed 4 subjects. No need to be happy cause the are border line. I failed my another 2 subjects with horrible to the bottom line marks. How bagus? I need to pray harder sampai khusyuk.
This was on Monday. Outing with Zareeza the Tall Lady and Firah the Short One. Oh yah, Im Qeena the Ghost.
Monday, May 14, 2007
If love was an instant maggie mee,
there would be instructions on how to prepare love.
Ingredients would show what is love made up of.
Nutrition facts would show what is the effect if love was taken.
If love was a picture,
it would say a million words what love is.
Saturday, May 12, 2007
I know. There is another 2 weeks to Malay Olevel paper. I am gg to revise my peribahasa again and start to indulge in Berita harian. Mother's day and Im pleading mum to buy me an mp3 or mp4. Anything tt is worth it. Oh well, how a good daughter I am *smiles away*
I don't have any appetite to eat a healthy diet meal. For now, Im into junks and nothing but junks. My stomach now has a different kind of reaction. I don't know if I am in the good mood or the bad mood. Maybe it is both at the same time. How perfect?
I am gg to meet BF to miggle here and there. Tomorrow is my another paper and I don't have the mood to start revising again. My mind is so cramped up and nothing but hay wires. For now, Im sick. Well, halfy cause Im just coughing out thick whatever. Now I am not in the mood to jump or scream. Shit i call this watabubeh!
Mum mum mum, You've been there for me
When im sick, you stayed up till late at night
When i need to see the doctor
You didn't went to work. Just to accompany me
Mum mum mum, You've been there for me
You have always listen to what I've said
Buy me things that I crave
Eventhough you've left with little money
Mum, you've bought/cooked me food
You will wake up early just to prepare us some food
You will search for the food I want
Mum, you've spend most of your time with us
Yet eventhough you're sleepy
You will try to stay up to miggle with us
Mum, You've been great
I don't know how much I should repay you
Mum, I love you!!!!!
Wednesday, May 09, 2007
Im a girl with many dreams. Many dreams I dream of. I want to adventure around the world, discovering the world. I will the the one who help and cure the animal and people around. I want to be a person who is successful so that my parents can be proud that Im borned. I wish I could think smart so that problems can be solved in a mere seconds. I wish I was confident and brave to overcome all the thick and thins and to stand up for my right.
Im a girl with many dreams. I want to be a rock star and I can beat the drums too. I'll beat the drums like how my heart pounds cos it is never ending. I'll sing out my life experiences to inspire people not to give up. I want to rock the world.
Im a girl with many dreams and dreams are meant to be dreams forever. It is like fantacies, it is never real. But still, I'll build castles in the clouds.
Sunday, May 06, 2007
I feel pathetic. Do you get it? Ho hey, Im feeling sick cos of exam stress and bad weather. Can this get any worst?
New years day- My dear
My dear,
Take what you want from me
I'll give you anything
Just don't leave me on my own
Desperate and destitute
A shadow of the former self I knew.
(Repeat)
Take what you want from me
I'll give you anything
It's so pathetic
I make myself sick
I can't get over you
I can't get over any of this.
My dear,
Is this really happening?
Do these tears mean anything?
How could you leave me on my own?
Desperate and destitute
These seconds feel like lifetimes without you.
Take what you want from me
I'll give you anything
It's so pathetic - I make myself sick
I can't get over you
I can't get over any of this
I never thought that I'd be the one with the weakness
You call the shops and I'll stay up on with the sleepless
It's so pathethic - I make myself sick
I can't get over you
I can't get over any of...
I can't get over you
I can't get over any of...
I can't get over you
I can't get over any of...
Take what you want from me
I'll give you anything
I'll give you everything
I'll give you everything...
Take what you want from me
I'll give you anything
It's so pathetic - I make myself sick
I can't get over you
I can't get over any of this
I never thought that I'd be the one with the weakness
You call the shops and I'll stay up on with the sleepless
It's so pathethic - I make myself sick
I can't get over you
I can't get over any of...
Friday, May 04, 2007
Physics in 3 days time, and Physics sucks. I don't understand, 410 don't understand. Thank you lah teacher. You can't compare him with cat sleeping. Ada paham?
Im feeling so lucky, oh yes way! Sri Lanka was tested for yesterday's social studies paper. Almost all student study that topic and of course, clever people will do that question. So chicken nugget, but no 100% guarentee I'll get B3. Maybe a so nice just pass for Social studies cos I sucked in source based.
Ini hari pula. I studied 30 minutes for the next topic "Second World War" & yes, it was tested. Triple the maple happy! Again no guarentee but aku sungguh gembira. Aku penat lah seh. Otak stress boleh buat qeena tidur. Heh!
Wednesday, May 02, 2007
This video brings back memories :]
Tuesday, May 01, 2007
Hey ho! Only god knows how tired I am. But still I need to study. Good results means another trip to Kbox.
Yesterday, I went to BF's crib after malay listening comprehension for awhile cos I need to go to Ika's chalet at Pasir ris. Oh well, I was late I know. Im so fcuking pissed that the taxis which drove by as they were occupied except for one, the one I paid. Had kerepek fun and total madness! I went back home late, before 5 in the morning. Hoho, Im supposed to study you know.
Today, I called BF and yes, bad news; he got more worst. He has to spent a couple of days at the hospital. I took a taxi there, so that I could accompany him at the Observation Room as he was alone tere, waiting for an unoccupied bed. Then he was brought to the ward by wheelchair. Kekek like kerepek! I bought him food as he had not eaten since yesterday. I leave the place at 1615 and went to my family's pit at Changi by cab. Many things to eat! Now, Im full. Im back home, and I need to study for thursday's examination.
